Monday, June 17, 2013

Day 17: Highs and Lows

My low of the past little while was probably the lowest of all my lows. It was the months during and after a terrible ending to a unhealthy "relationship". It was the first time in my life that I came to the sad realization that another person can make me feel so miserable, guilty, shameful, and heartbroken all at the same time. For several months, I had difficulties concentrating on anything and my grades suffered quite a bit; I woke up every morning with the most painful feeling in my chest and the mentioning of his name makes my heart palpitate. I kept on going back again and again on what happened and how I could have let those things happen... But I am alright now.
So I guess that brings me to my high, it's not quite a high but getting over the whole thing was a big accomplishment for me. It took a lot of time and thinking, but I concluded that though I wasn't completely blame free, I shouldn't have to forever suffer from the terrible actions of a selfish and despicable person who isn't worth my time. I am glad to report that I no longer wake up in the morning with a bitter taste in my month, and when I do think of him, it is usually accompanied by the thought: "whew, glad I dodged that bullet". ;)